 Suicide Not A Good Idea! | |
I've contemplated suicide when I was younger but after a near death experience I now want to live as long as possible, in fact I fear death a lot more these days and am constantly thinking about it, smoking marijuana , having a computer and now having to take care of some plants keeps my mind off of everyday crap such as dying.
I believe that marijuana helps with depression to a degree, but if you don't change your habits do things different then marijuana is bound to make your situation worse, If you think by smoking a joint or whatever is enough, think again if you don't do anything constructive and just sit around in your thought's or draining your brain on the tv, computer your situation will not get better, sure smoking will always make you feel better but ask yourself how long?
I can smoke a joint, sit back watch some tv and be fine , however the high will eventually dissipate and would need to smoke more, so if I'm sitting at my computer or watching tv the more I tend to smoke but if I'm doing something, going somewhere the less I will actually need to smoke, going out or doing something constructive keeps my mind of things and I really don't need to smoke. the most important smoke for me is shortly after waking up and right before bed, throughout the day if I'm doing something constructive I have no need to smoke.
You need to try and get out do more then watch tv and sitting at the computer, believe me I'm struggling with this now, there's nothing more that I'd like to do more than to sit at my computer, but I'm finding out by doing things different and getting out more helps, after spending the day doing something constructive whether it be going to the lake, taking care of plants etc you feel like you accomplish something for that day and that feeling is Awesome, when I spend my day doing something other than watching tv or sitting at my computer the better I feel and it's hard because I'm a lazy sun of a bitch naturally and certain pot makes me even more so, so choose your weed wisely! |