yall fucking crack me up! it was a methaphorical dildo! i was just saying she fucked me! and i dont recall who said it! but i wasnt looking for advice on what to do! was was just tryin to get this shit off my chest and out of my head! cuz shit like this hurts! i know some people say oh well! and hook up with some one else! but i cant help that i have a heart! i guess my kids put that in me! and in not suicidal by far! id never leave and hurt my kids like that! stay cool yall