Yeah I wrote this about a year ago on myspace as a blog. I made some movie a while ago with a shitty song I was playing. Just me and my brother fucking around with widows movie maker for the first time, anyways the song was called, kill god, and well, people didnt really like it. haha It was funny how all these "good christians" were just threating me, and wishing the worst of all hells on me and my family. Its quite funny, and absurd, but mostly just the epitome of religion in itself. "Be like me, like god tells you to, or parish in the worst of hells imaginable... haha So I put some good reasearch into it, and spent some time on it. Anyways, I totally agree, what comes when you die is one of the biggest mystery's which no side has any proof... thats why I think when you die, well fuck, you just die. Thats why there's no proof, cause there's nothing tio prove. It's awsome to think of reincarnation, or a heaven... and who knows it all could be true, no one knows. All I can say is if this "god" charachter exisits, and he thinks Me, thinking for myself and basing my belife's on what sources I have seen and experienced, is enough to sentance me to this "hell" well... fuck him. haha But like your paradox is what my parents and I have discussed before. My dad, is cathloic, and my mom is christian. My gradma was full time cathloic, prayed 4 hours everday for her whole life. The whole cathloic life, all day 24/7. Now is this gatekeeper gonna keep me out, which will not be what my family wants?? Or let me in this back door? Only time will tell... till then, I am open to all ideas and evidence. But as I go to work in the morning, as I walk down the city streets, as I visit the hospitals and welfare office's and jailhouses... is hard to belive there's a god.