Have any of you been clinically depressed ever since you started smoking pot? Were you depressed before you started smoking pot? I need some information on this.

I have been diagnosed with clinical depression by my psychiatrist. Ever since I started smoking pot last year I have been seeing the world in a much clearer scale. And it's all negative. I started thinking about how worthless life is and why I should keep moving on in this world. What is the point of living was the question always racing through my head. And I had thoughts of suicide.

Before my psychiatrist diagnosed me with clinical depression, I stopped smoking pot altogether. I did all kinds of research online on the symptoms and if marijuana causes it. Whether it is permanent or temporary, shit like that. I was experiencing all the symptoms. Weight gain, loss of interest, laziness, unable to work, change in sleeping patterns, I had every symptom And I am only 18 years old.

I'm sorry if I'm being a drama queen but this thread isn't about that. I don't need people feeling sorry for me. I want to know if any one else experiences depression prior to smoking marijuana and thats it.

However, I'm still growing my own pot. Not because I want to smoke it but now it has become a hobby. I find marijuana to be one of the best examples of horticulture.