Hi folks. Here's a wee bit of a common sense that i heard{?} through Alan Watts. I can't remember exactly what he said, but the idea is along these lines...We experience what we consider to be other internally; i.e. what we experience through our senses happens inside of us, e.g. all trees, litter, cherries, books, odours, other people etc, are inside not outside. With this in mind, one can reflect on connectedness, on our own direct experience. The very fact that you would initiate this thread JOEGALLO is a great thing. Asking profound questions like you have provides the impetus for reflection, and in my opinion it is reflection, or even better, contemplation, that will lead to you ceasing to have to ask anyone else what is right or wrong; you'll feel it out for yourself. That said, there are many paths to God, and there are many people that have gone before, and many that are around today who can help galvanise your search, but my personal opinion is that signposting is the best anyone can do for you. I am amazed to find how pretty much all of the great religious traditions have their mystical aspects, and ultimately are saying the same thing. It's also great fun to check out how strange the world is according to those at the cutting edge{last 100 years or so} of physics. Please don't assume that i understand physics at any depth beyond that of someone who can entertain the very basics of the wonderfully strange ideas espoused by the likes of Einstein, Planck, Heisenberg et al. Their theories which can be shown to be true may help you look inward by demonstating that things are not how we percieve them to be. I enjoy books on zen, vedanta, sufism,yoga, aikido, shamanism, quantum mechanics and many other subjects. If you feel an affinity with Jesus, then maybe a course in miracles would be of interest? I didn't get too far with it, one for later perhaps. I would suggest seeing the late George Carlin's take on religion before worrying too much about heaven or hell, it can be easily found on youtube, and may perhaps highlight some crucial distortions in what to my mind are pretty seedy institutions. That said, i know people of most faiths who are a hell of a lot more serene than me. I by no means mean to do anything but share your thread and wish you well on your path. Oh.. theosophical society seems pretty cool to me to. All the best s.