Originally Posted by mykul916

okay, so lately i cannot stop thinkingabout dying. iknow its weird, and itscares me a lot. but i cannot stop thinking about it and how much icant accept it. i just keep thinkingabout laying in a hospital bed knowing that im going to di, but also knowing that i cant accept its coming....wanting with every breath to live, but knowing that soon i'll lose my breathe.

i think im so afraid because of my beliefs...im atheist i guess. i dont beleive in god (in the same way i dont beleive in the tooth fairy or the easter bunny). i believe that when you die it all ends. no lights, no fire, no peter, no wings, no reincarnation, no limbo, no whatever. just black.

ive bleieved this since i was a child. the only part of you that ithink moves on is your electrical and magnetic energy (duh). but yet, im so afraid to die. i dont want my life to end, i wanna stay with my wife and lovemy kid and grow my crop and keep doing good in the world....but then i reemember the black. thats what i live with day to day.

so i guess my question is: how do i make myslf not fear death?

i tried to watch those nasty videos of people dying, cuz thats what psychiatrists tell you to do when you have a fer of death or blood, but all that did was make me realize that life is so damn short. and it ends so damn fast.